Basically
I’m an old fashioned romantic and believe in everyone finding true love. I did
say true love, or you could call it real love, what ever sits better with you.
The really good stuff is what I’m talking about; the weak at the knees, can’t
believe I found him type of love.
To make a long,
long story short I will try to explain, how utterly clueless I was in all areas
relating to love and relationships, I was a loser at love, I never picked the
right man, didn’t let the men I actually liked know about it and one I actually
loved know, well it was destiny as he really was not the one for me but God did
he break my heart. I put all my confusion and pain into my work, in truth I was
scared of love, scared to admit that I wanted to be loved, understood,
accepted, valued, and wanted this more than anything else in the world.
I wasn’t
until I found my self alone again (motivated by me) after a car crash of a
marriage that I thought, what do I want in life? To be happy, sounds easy
enough, what would make me happy? To be really deeply loved. Finally admitted that to myself was like a ray
of pure star light, I had my answer, now, what to do about it.
I have a
beautiful little girl, I had a great life, and (it took me about 4/5 years to
get my mojo back). But I did want to
share my life with someone special, in spit of all the pain, lonelness, heart
ache I really still believed I’d just hadn’t met my Mr. Right.
I of course
didn’t know how to go about it, where to find him or even what I wanted in a
man, you see this time around I was setting my sights on a great man, not settling,
It took ages for me to believe I deserved to be loved,
treated with respect, to fully
understand that I was special. like so many woman I had terribly low self esteem, no clue
about love, no relationship skills, no idea what men even look for in a woman,
I really mean that, so I learned, studied, talked to people. Put my new found
skills and man knowledge into practice, changed my behaviour in some ways a
lot, in other ways very little, and like magic I became a man magnet. You see
there were always men about before but I never gave them the time of day as I
was scared, and didn’t know how to act so I was frosty Mac frosty.
It has a very happy ending, I have a great love, we do really adore each
other, but we work at keeping our relationship a priority. It is not all hearts
and flowers. We don’t always see eye to eye, we are simply delighted to have
each other and so you must make your man, yourself and your relationship a
number one priority in your life.
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